Day 26

Sometimes a dream is just outside your grasp, and it doesn’t turn out to be YOUR dream after all!

What was it Garth Brooks sang? “Some of God’s greatest gifts are unanswered prayers”?

I thought of this as I watched Oprah interview Phil Knight, the mastermind behind the Nike empire. He has always shied away from the media but I suppose Oprah is someone most just can’t turn down! He seemed modest and honest and seemed like he truly loves what he does. Still to this day!

But his story was that he, like so many young people, wanted to be a professional athlete. Once he realized that dream wasn’t going to happen, he simply wanted to work with inspiring University of Oregon coach, Bill Bauerman. The two formed an agreement with $500 each and were selling custom shoes out of a car at track meets.

Fast forward to one of the biggest empires worldwide.

A few athletes taped thank-yous  to Mr. Knight, Lance Armstrong even made a personal appearance. When the two originally discussed the Livestrong wristband, neither of them thought it was a good idea!

There have been 80 MILLION distributed to date.

As I was watching the whole thing, Oprah said she started running again. Seeing her smiling and openly showing so much affection for what these two men had done, it occurred to me that Oprah didn’t have to be a champion. Her job was something else. These two men inspired people in completely different ways, as did Oprah. Phil Knight never did become a major league baseball player but he is still doing what he truly loves!

It was like a lightbulb went off.

What am I doing trying to be someone else? Why am I trying to pursue something that isn’t what I am supposed to do?!

I like to be fit. I put pressure on myself and it backfires. I feel guilt when I don’t succeed.

It’s been that way in my work life also!

Although I have truly enjoyed doing most of the jobs I have done, only one did I really love.

Interviewing people. Making people think a different way. Writing and for that matter, blogging. Allowing people to talk, have a voice. I’m good at that. I wasn’t meant to be a champion athlete. I need to leave that to the people who spend every waking moment thinking about how much they love it.

That doesn’t mean I can’t conquer a triathlon, but it means I don’t have to do it over and over. It’s the journey anyway, not the finish.

So maybe all this confusion about what I’m supposed to “do” careerwise and what tri event I should commit to should be more about what I LOVE, about what makes me happy and that comes right back to what my life coach Michael asked me to do this week.

I was asked to write down 100 things that make me happy. It was hard.

I realized being fit makes me happy but feeling guilty about not working out doesn’t. I need to stop the cycle. Truly enjoy what I’m doing, or why do it??? Who am I doing it for???

I felt really good about realizing all of this!

Ironically, I worked with my financial guy today, helping him get his office organized. I told him I would volunteer to learn more about his business and see if it was a good fit for both of us before we entered into a “working” relationship. It was fun and I learned a lot! It was also great to get the brain juices flowing again! I am discovering other skills I have and that’s encouraging! I’m going back tomorrow to learn more and see how it goes!

I’m also training with Lisa tonight, for the first time since being in hospital. I’m really looking forward to it!

More epiphanies! Great day!

This is the only decent video I could find of that Garth Brooks song. It’s from the series Jericho!



  1. Kelly Clark · April 26, 2011

    What an awesome read! 🙂 Good for you. Can’t wait to read more 😀

    • shaunarae67 · April 26, 2011

      Thanks Kel! So great to hear from you! You look exactly the same as high school! Just lovely! xo

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